Oyena Gwebityala

I see many of my friends are thinking about the same thing that has been on my mind a lot lately i.e. what happens to the dreams we had in our youth, what happens to wanting to conquer the world and saving all the poor and marginalized? I won’t pretend to know what happens to everyone or even most people. What I know is what happened to me and perhaps that is a good start for any inductive proof process.

But before I go on about what happened I best begin with what I wanted to do when I was say 18 or 19. I wanted to be the best president the developed world will ever see, I wanted to go save souls in Nigeria and other nations where I felt needed to have souls saved (I am a christian you see).

Then something happened, I can’t tell you what it is now, but maybe some day. All I can say now is that it was tragic and it happened to a person I love with all my heart. And after that the developing world and the lost souls of Africa seemed to matter less and less until they did not matter anymore. All I want now is to make life better for myself and my loved one, to show this particular person that life is not the bytch that it’s been for the passed few years. And that means I need some security, a picket fence and a hedge oh and a bulldog just to seal the deal.

Don’t get me wrong, I will still travel the world on 7 seas (as the song goes), but I won’t give up my day job to be on the mission field or for the country. I have just realised (like Richard put it) that I am ordinary, I get hurt like everybody else and my loved ones get hurt as well. And the basic mammalian instinct has kicked in, my survival and that of my loved ones comes first.

It was a painful reality that I have had to face, and I won’t even try to fight it. Let me close this post by saying here here to a 20 year bond and car insurance!

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